Decadence

thanks almost none of my poems have title's most i just start writing something and keep going and going till it ends ill see if i can find my note book i had one in... well maybe ill come up with something later

title: knifes edge/ end this life this fear haunts me in my dreams i run away but you seem to scream i hate that sound the sound of pain so i turn back but to see you slain these dreams they haubt ne every night a dark void i fear and fight these voices pass the edge of the knife telling me of pleasure and not of strife but these dark dream haunt me yet i fear flight i must stay yet i do not fight pain and poison are my friends both will stop me in the end yet the end hasnt come though i wish it to this life is triveal and yet filled to to the brim with spite and malice for those who took you from me and then set me free they wouldnt kill me though i begged they let me go to see you killed and saved me when i tried to join you now death wont come they wont let it but they seem to think they are helping me they are just tourturing me my angle please come and take me away away from this life away from this pain "why wont you come" i ask the darkness the dark hold no anser though i wish it would it wont anser me and you wont come please take me i beg yet you see to wait wait for the light that shall never break break this darkness the encompasses me sense my loss of you and me

Man hates pain, so he puts walls around his heart to prevent people from getting close. But these walls both prevent pain and cause pain. It causes lonelyness. A sickly sweet poision is lonelyness. It makes you feel strong until someone gets in and you cant push them away. And when they leave, the walls fall on you causing even more pain. And this pain makes it even harder to build the walls back up because you know the pleasure of having someone close to you. Man needs others to live. This is mans only flaw, yet at the same time, its greatest quality. Because the ones who live for others do great, great things for the rest of man because they care for others. Not just themselves.

death is realy neather bad nor good it just is. it is needed or else the worlds pop would be like 9999999999999999999999999+++++ so like i said before death is neather good nor bad it just is.

"arhg, why wont any of you beleave me" he yelled while killing the angels that had attacked him. he had been telling them about what he remembered but they didnt care all they knew was he was anouther angel to be killed. once he had killed them all he flew away. "i know im only fueling the blood shed but they wont listen and better to kill them than let them kill others." he thought, trying to justify his actions. ______________________________________________________________________ (flashback) rose was hanging on his arm useing him to keep her balance. she had become very sick quickly and there were no hospitals around. sheal decided to just pick her up and carry her to where they were going. the sickness had come on very quickly. some guy attacked them forcing him to drop rose. sheal bent down to see if she was alright and she wispered in to his ear "dont, dont go after him he got nothing of importance from us, please dont go after him i dont want you to kill him" she thought if he got his hands on the guy the guy would end up dead or dyeing because he had made him drop her. "please sheal i dont want you to kill any one" she begged him. (end flashback)______________________________________________________________________ he had killed again even after she had asked him not to. he was discusted frem him self. "rose... im sorry" he thought. he decided to land and just continue in the morning.

ooc: didnt want every one to forget about this one, well thats all (yea i put it back up top :P)

Name: matt jindrek Age: 19 Gender: male Bio: matt had been alone for as long as he could remember. he had amniesa when we was about 14 and couldnt find out who his parents were.he had wandered ever sense then. he couldnt remember a thing from before he was 14 and when he tried to remember he would have a severe head ache. when he had seen Lucia McGrav he had ended up in the emergency room, the doctors couldnt figure out what had happened to him or what had caused it. he wondered if she some how had something to do with his past. Place of Sighting : shore line of the beach Appearance: spiked raven black hair, red eyes, X shaped scar under his right eye, silver chain neklace with a cross the cross has a red gem in the center, black jeans, black short sleeved shirt, tanned skin from being out side every day with no where inside to go, black skating shoes, hight 5"11

Sheal sat there thinking, something about this seemed familyer. He then remembered something a mortal had read. "when dark and light clash again the world will punge into chaos, this chaos will bring pain. this pain will pervert the hearts of men, and men will call on demons again. when these demons are coming an angel shall cry, when this angel crys the tears shall be blood, blood for a love neather for darkness or for light but for a mortal, this angel shall see the end. less dark and light are bound, the demons shall be fed on blood shed and grow stronger. they will overcome the light and destroy the old darkness destroying man and angel alike...." thats all he could remember but it made sense, all of it. It then hit him "lord why did you start this?" he asked under his breath "the profice is coming true yet you started it, why?... do you want to see everything destroied? has man truely become that evil?" he starts to scream "no you shall not end this" he walked over to the tomb and seeled it. He then ran out side. he started to fly. he needed to get back there and warn them. he knew few would listen but he had to try. he may have been cast out but he knew that man did not deserve this.

he landed, making sure that she did not fall out of his arms. he sets her down and looks around. he see's and angel sheal, his voice as cold as death "die" he says and walks to the angel he grabs the angel by the wings and rips them out. the other angel screams in pain. sheal then draws his dagger and stabs the angel in the stomache. he drags the angel to the woods and leaves it there. he walks back out of the woods and over to his deceased love "you did not deserve to die" he says, a singel tears runs down his cheek. "he picks her up and carry's her to the lone building here, an old temple, he carriers her inside and lays her in the tomb in there. then he seals it. he looks up and see's a cross hanging on the wall. he screams in anger and frustration "how dare he taunt me, that.. that." then he goes silent and flys up to the cross and grabs it. he drags it out side and leaves it there. he then walks back inside the temple and sees a blank scroll. he grabs it walks over to a table and starts to write about his life up until now on it. he thinks to him self "they may twist this and show me as evil but i will write this i will tell the truth about what has happened to me sense my fall from heaven. some time later (he has lost all sense of time) he finds anouther scroll and starts to write about rose about the torment of losing her. the futility of this war and the pain the lord has put him threw for beleaving his friend.

OOC: hey you do know you other people could post... just reminding you all...

"wha... what, who's there?.... i..if its an angel... leave i have had enough of you today." hey said, his tone mournful. he turns around to see who it is. he sees a human.. he looks familer but sheal shakes it off "please leave this does not concern you" under his breath "the next angel i see i shall kill, they are the ones who did this to her." he gets up and picks her body up. he jumps off the edge of the cliff, he speads his wings and flys off to the one place that was sacred to both of them. ______________________________________________________________________ (flash back) they walk out of the trees and he tells her that they were there. rose "oh, its Beautiful. how did you find this place sheal?" to him self "i was hoping she wouldn't ask this" talking now "well my parents used to take me here when i was little" rose "i see, well how about we come here every year on this day from now on? it seems so peaceful and quiet." "um... ok that sounds like a good idea." (end flashback) ______________________________________________________________________ thinking "hmm that day was..." his eyes go wide "that day was to day... well i guess she'll still get to go" he continues to fly tears still running down his face.

he threw his dagger at the angel trying to divertm hkis atten form the swing but it didnt work he brought up his swod to block the attack but thought better and just simply the the swords hit and let himself drop. he folded his wings around him and dove towards the ground aiming for a group of angels hoping to hit them. this angel, uriel, he was different he coundt get his acidic words to bring a boiling rage to him. he could not make him angery enough to be thoughtless. his last comment "you shall repent or be cast out like lucifer" had disturbed him did this angel not see that he had allready been cast out? that the lord had cast him out for no reason. "brahhg" he screemed. his basis of what was true had just been shakin. lucifer had been his brother, lucifer had been the one who told him that the lord was casting him out.... "no, uriel is lying lucifer would have not lied to me... would he?"... "no he wouldn't" "uriel" he screamed "i had said one of us would die and i ment it" the fires of hell were no engulfing him renewing his strenght. in scilence he thanked his brother "thank you lucifer, thank you for taking me out of that place of lies, the truth is painful but it is still better then these lies their false god tells them." he thought to himself "it is said, hell hath no fury like a womens wrath" and last time he had gotten into a fight with his girlfriend she had proved that saying true.... his girlfriend, it struck him odd that he would think of her now.... to himself "my god...., these angels are falling every where... she she might be..." "NO!!!!" he screamed his stopped falling and started to fly to town tears runnign down his face. he folded his wings into his bodie and hit the ground rolling and jumped up and started to run towards her house. he saw angels there. he battled them aside "those bastards" he thought "if they have hurt her or her family i will each one of them limb from limb." he kicked open the door he saw her lyeing there dead in a pool of blood with 5 angeks fighting around her. "you angels" he yelled drawing their attenion away from each other to him. they laughed one said "what do you want human" he replied not with words up with an action. he walked up to one and punched through its chest and grabbed its heart and ripped it out "i want all of you dead" he said with that he reverted back to his angel form and started to slam the hilt of his sword into the angels face each one about 5 times. then he crushed there heads after that he fell down and started to cry "why, why did they haf *sob* have to kill h *sob* her" he got back up and walked over to her body. he shut her eyes and picked her up he started to fly to her faveorit part of the mouintain and laied her down there. then he sat there and guarded her waiting for this pointless war to be over. he promised himself he would get even with heaven and hell for her dieing... "they all will pay" he thought

he dived letting his sword reach uriel first. "hmm, guess it didnt work" he raises his sword up taking an overhand slash at uriel while lunging forward ithe his dagger tilted slightly upwards to block a stab at him, hopefully. "uriel" he spat in an almost demonic voice "this war is that tyrent of light's fault, i did not start this he was the one who banished me... and you. how much could he acctuly care about his angels or his presious human race if he would let this war be fought where they live? how could he not know it would be a cataclysmic battle? by what right do you fight for the light? well... is it because he created you? he also created the dark how is it that he turned from us?" taking a breath to calm down "now one of shall die in this battle i will not stop till i or you are dead" to emphsize that point he continues the slash putting sall his rage and furry behind it "die" he said one last time before the swords met.

about human evolution he's right the diff skin color, eye shape, ect. is all a form of evolution. also the humans arnt at the peak of there existence but right now we have technology its sumwhat like we don't absolutly need to evolve cuz we can just try to invent something to fix the problem thus stoping the race from evolving cuz it seems to me that evolution stems from a lasting problem example. the hotter places darkers skin thing see the skin got burnt to easaly so it became darker and darker and darker untill it was very hard to burn same with the realy cold places there skin just got lighter and lighter untill they could get enough of the suns vitamin (cant remember which one the sun gives) to be healthy. and yes its surprizing there hasnt been much flaiming on this post

he flys towards uriel fist clenched full of sand. he raises his sword arm up for a slash. he keeps flying after uriel the sand running out of his hand slightly. "i better get there while i still have enuff left" he thinks to himself. he starts to fly faster towards uriel he catches up with him. as he reaches uriel he starts to fly backwards and up slightly to avoid the sword. he throws the sand towards uriel in an arch then flys back yo avoid getting any in his eyes. he draws his dagger again and starts to asend even higher so that the suns behind him and that he can dive towards uriel.

sheal takes a wild swing at uriel whit his sword, out of fury, it hits but it hits metel. sheal doesnt see nor care what it hit, he knows it wasn't flesh, he takes another slash at uriel this time over hand while stabbing forward with his dagger. as the rage starts to ebb away sheal starts to think more carfully about what he's doing "this isnt a normal human" he thinks to himself "ive got to be more careful this angel can acctuly kill me" he starts to fly back a little ways to clear his mind of the chaos, watching uriel the whole time. he starts to decend towards the ground. as he lands he puts his dagger away. he kneels and grabs a handful of sand and starts to asend towards uriel again.

also the first thing mankind learnd was how to defend its self. that was a ggod thing too for if we hadnt the world would be run by tigers now. (sorry bout the joke but im serious) mankind knows how to fight because it must it must know to survive and survival is the basic instient of every human if its not that means they have no reason to live but the human race as a whole does so that basic instint will never die and neather will the will to fight. ok also some people just cant fight (uh... me for one) i just cant fight i know how i just cant i realy cant bring my self to knock someones teeth out im not a pasifist i just havnt been in a situation where i didnt have the option to just knock them down and run. i probly could just beat the 'ell outa some one i just dont have the will to but two guys slapping is different from just not having the will to fight if there is other options two guys slapping is just wierd especily if they are on any sports team cuz at least then you know that they cant be weak

yes vidio games influence behavior a little bit... well maybe not behavior but more like desensitize us from violence and such. but the lawmakers missed this side "better to let a pissed off kid beat the living S*** outa a vidio game charecter then some one real" i meen i when i get mad at my friends or somthin i go play a fighting/ shooting game and just go and destroy the comp it calms me down and i dont feel half as mad at the person as i did before i just take it out on something that cant feel it cuz punching a pillow doesnt help me

ok and to justin (im not flaming you) or any one else who can anser these. theres just a few things that no christian ive ever asked has been able to refute (but then ive only asked the ones who seem to be a little on the fanaticel side) ok maybe these are questions they are statements but i would like to see them proven wrong (i meen this sincerly) 1. when god gave man free will he created sin. how? he gave man the will to chose his/her own destiny thus giving man the ultimate power even a power that he cannot controll. 2. the bible may be wrong. how? it was written by man, man makes errors eg. noah and the ark, if the earth was covered in salt water (i dont remember how long ago) for a year then everything would have died, all the fields would have been salted and nothing able to grow. then how does the bird find the olive branch? how did noah collect 2 of every animal (i meen every animal as it states in the bible) i meen come on 2 of every bird, insect (thats allmost impossible) mamal. what about fresh water fish? how did they survive the flood it was all salt water. well thats all for now i may think of more later. thanks any one who can anser these even just a little bit. anser (offer proof, any thing to prove me wrong)

hey similer to the dream whos not to say that we are the after life? we have both "heaven and hell" here. any ways bout religion (christian manely even though thats what i *am*) well it seems a little harsh/cruel for god to punish some one for an eternity for one life time of mistakes. relitively whats 60-90 years compaired to an etirnity? no way to repent. so reincarnation seems possible and all so does heaven and hell but so does the dream and to each his(or her) own. who knows i sure dont hey if you beleave in god ok if you are aeithest (i cant spell) hey thats still ok rasta, confusishism, buddism, toaism, jewish, muslim ect (i still cant spell it seems) ok hey we wont know till we die so why does it matter. and with science (the only one that seems to have solid proof about most things) hey yea that to. ultimate knowige is impossible to gain bout life, death, science ect... the only way to gain it would be to die and be reamimated, and live for 9999999..... years at full mental compasity not forgeting a thing so even science wont have an anser any time soon. (dont flame me) (and yes i do beleave in god and i beleave the christ was gods son i just dont have that christain ditude "that if you don't beleave that you not going to heaven" thats just the majority of the feeling i get from realy christian people not thats the only type just most of who ive met)

he walks to the edge of a cliff and changes into his angel form "theres no more avoiden this" he thinks to himself he jumps off the cliff in a dive, drawing his sword and dagger. he flaps his wings and he slows down and rights himself. he lands and fineshes drawinf his weapons he swats the first angel to come at him makin the angel flip into the face of the cliff. he sits there taunting angels to attack him. he stands up and starts to walk towards the center of the fray waiting for some one to attack him.

I don't know we won't find out till we die and i'll just live my life as if its the only one i get and be thankfull i got it cuz id rather find out later than sooner heven hell limbo reincarnated ect. who knows who's right

he walks around the mountain and sees uriel "uriel" he spits (under his voice so uriel cant hear him), contempt dripping from the word, "what is he doing here?" he starts to walk away trying to avoid a conflict between him and any other angels for as long as possible.

Sheal starts to walk towards town trying to decide what to do. he starts to wander aimlessly around the trails just trying to clear his head. "this war,... it seems useless but oh well who am i to deny what i was created for?" he thinks. he keeps wandering till he sees the other angels. he stops dead... he turns and walks away.

sheal just sat there in a tree brooding hearing them but not careing. he mumbles to him self "ah more angles are falling to earth, a war shall be starting soon..." he jumps out of the tree and starts to walk away. then he turns and start to walk back up the mountain trying to decide what the lord is thinking banishing angles like this both the light and dark. he mumbles to himself again "he must want this war... theres no other reason for this, but this war was coming. the wounds are opening anew and he banishes more angles to here thus it begins and thus is the beginning of the end"