Dovahkiin

ouch, sorry to hear that :/

Well, i have poems in one of my worlds on theO and i thought that i would share them here. [left]Can you see me? [/left]can you see me from where you are? you left me long ago, i have drempt of a place where you and i are together, all i want is for you to be here by my side, if i could forget this life and go with you i would, because with you i would safe and we'll be lost in the dream. But i know we wont be together until the day you come to take me with your wings unfolded in the glowing light. ive been looking in the mirror for so long,believing that you are there, but that mirror has shattered and the pieces cut into me, they bring me back to the cruelty of my life. Mum i hope you can see me from where you sit with your wings folded. [color="#000000"]Relief from the pain[/color] the worst is over now i can finally breath, i keep your photograph because it reminds me of why im still alive. Nobody knows what ive been holding back, i hid the bruises and pain behind a mask of happiness. that mask has slid off my face, my soul was caught in the hands of fate, its changed now, the path i was once on led me to decay, then you reached out with your hand and felt my heartache, you gave me the courage to make my path. Monster you are not the man i used to know you are now a monster that escaped from hell and have brought your wrath down upon me. no one knows the feelings i feel and i blame you! no you will never see the tears i cry because i dont cry on the outside anymore, im so together but so broken up inside, i will never forgive or forget, does it run in your blood to hurt the ones you love? if i needed someone to control me, if i needed someone to push me around, i wouldnt of changed my direction and saved myself before i drowned. without the mask and power where will you hide? the real you never was and never will be, you have no idea how you've hurt me. Life i wonder aimlessly through life taking each day as it comes, my spirit is strong, it will faultier at times but it will never be broken. people pull me down but i will not let them destroy me, the blackness will never consume me for i see the light. Pain filled life my heart is filled with pain and sorrow but i hide it under my happiness, i keep it locked up deep inside my heart, waiting for the day when i can release it so it troubles me no more, that day is still to come, it is far away and yet i am a day closer. Suffer you made me weak, you made me suffer, you shut me out from the world, you tourtured me to no ends. many times had i thought about taking flight, leaving that dark place behind but something made me stay and fight you, you hate me because of my decision, i hate you for so many reasons you can't imagine. Memories glowing dim as an amber but still they burn deep in my mind, the memories of you and what you've done will never leave me. they dig ever deeper into my mind, planting their dark images into my thoughts, my life, my soul. these memories will forever stay with me burning like an eternal flame that can not be put out, i try to push these memories away from my mind but no matter how hard i try, they still stay there, forever burning the images into my mind, forever burning the images that reflect in my damaged memories. Darkness the darkness is all around me, i have fought it off so many times but it always stays in the background, lurking, waiting patiently to strike when my light fades away. That time has come and gone, like an eternal flame that has been put out, now i welcome the darkness, come, ensnare me with your emptiness for i only feel the sorrow, so pull me down into that black abyss and fill my mind, body and soul with your blackness. Manifestations My mind drifts and wanders, the thoughts that run around are scattered, lost, confused. My heart beats fast because it is scared, scared for what is about to come. The sleepless nights are becoming more and more,they bring thoughts and images which manifest into my worst nightmares. I am slowly losing the battle against him, if i do not find myself soon then all hope is gone, lost in the dark, dreadful black hell. Freedom I am finally free from your cruel, decitful, corrupting grasp. Three and a half years you tortured me for, I wanted to take the easy way out so many times but something stopped me, that force made me fight back, it gave me the strength to continue on in this life. You once said to me that I was a failure and I would amount to nothing but I am proving you wrong, I am making my own path, following it to reach my goals. Stronger people see me as a weak person, someone they can play games on, someone they can make a fool of, in the end those people don't know what i've been through in my life, nor will they ever know. yes my life has been hard, in the past it was a living nightmare but i escaped it, i woke up, i defeated my demons. all that i have been through has made me a stronger person to see people for who they really are and their games, their lies i will never play or believe, try all you wish to break me, break my spirit but you will never succeed. Storm on the horizon The dark clouds appear again, the emptiness has returned, time is lost in my mind. I want to see you, even if it is only a picture of your face. My heart and body feel heavy with pain yet I'm surrounded by loved ones but something is missing from this family, this life. If I could change what happened I would, just so this family doesn't have to feel this pain, so this family could be whole.

For me there are no new games out for the 360 [s]or there are but i don't know about them[/s] anyway, for a while i have been playing matchmaking on Halo: Reach, i do have other games but i am either stuck or i cannot be bothered playing the campains. And another reason why i haven't bought any more games is because they are so damn expensive here in australia! >( even games that came out months and months ago are still $50+ unless you buy pre-owned, but then they are still pricey. Everything was so cheaper in america, i kinda wish i was back there now.

haha, :O a victorian! wow, i never meet many aussies on theO, so kind of a shock there, and thanks! awesomeness, always happy to add others :)

halo reach is a pretty damn good game if you ask me, just like all the other halo games apart from halo wars, which should be for the PC and not the Xbox 360. If anyone wants to vs me or whatever my gamertag is Rose Blade94.