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Hot Topic is worse than Abercrombie & Fitch in my opinion. I don't mind either really, though i would never shop at Abercrombie just because thats not my type of clothes. But at least there is an honest preppiness about the place. The same little kinder-goths that snub their noses at the preps complain about the preps having all that money just turn around and pay twice as much for a pair of Tripp pants. Its just so funny that they are all owned by the same people, so if you shop at Hot Topic you are probably funding the next Abercrombie store. The place i used to love was Gadzooks, they had major sales and were an honest version of hot topic. They had some prep clothes and some raver clothes (Masters of Architectural Clothing [M.A.C.] ). But now they bite too, honestly name brands are no big deal. Don't define yourself by them but don't snub someone who likes them. Unless they look ridiculous in pastel colors, in which case you can laugh and point.

I was just thinking about the poetry section of OB being a little slow sometimes. This other forum i go to just for poetry has a small system to it. Everytime you post a poem you respond to three posts. Preferably ones that have the least replies. You can reply to as many as you want of course but they ask you do this first a courtesy, that way things stay active and no one gets bumped to the bottom of the thread page without a single reply. Just a random thought. VR

Sweet Roses Torn flowers bleed Their tears choking The grass Petals litter the sidewalk Slashed by your Kisses The more your life blooms The worse mine spirals down Leaves wilt against your serrated Lips Your venom corroding Their thin flaxen Skin Nothing has felt worse This night or any before it Snap my stem from Your grasp Let my heart grow Away from your Tangled thorns And let me rest Amongst the roses

Thanks, and its just MyOtaku i am worried about. I will check in a few days to see if the search results are the same. Thanks a bunch! VR

I have a rather odd question i guess. Recently someone has been attempting to scronge up all types of info about me on the internet. I was afraid of them finding my journal, this person in particular could do lots of bad with it. Any who they don't know my otaku username but they could find out my email easily enough. I googled my screen name and my journal was the third result, it was a direct link to it. It said it linked becasue of my profile stats since i put that in my profile in case someone wanted to email me. I deleted any info in my profile that would link me to it but when i google it the same thing happens even though the info is no longer there. I used another computer and it did the same thing. I was wondering if anything could be done about it or if i should just go ahead and delete my account.

Well i have played the games and i thought the movie was kind of crappy. The story was all over the place , they never really decided where they were going with it. It was an action thriller for the first part then an actual horror movie. I wish they had kept more of the original story. The acting was crappy as well, the only decent acting was from Cybil. The effects looked too fake, not saying i could do any better but for a movie like that, thats half the reason you go. Pyramid head (red pyramid) was never in the first one so i assume they threw him in because he is a popular character in the franshise. But if they were going to do that useing him a bit more would have been a good idea. For a video game movie it was okay, but for a christophe Gans (brotherhood of the wolf) movie it was lacking. The cinematography in the beginning of the movie was gorgeous, the color and framing was simply gorgeous. Even in the town it was nice. The end credits were cool, i like how they used the music from the third game for it. I kind of wish they had used Room of Angel from silent hill 4. I think that would have been absolutely perfect for the credits. It would have fit perfectly with the ending.

I think my little story tidbit is open to interpretation, my boyfriend and i broke up then he and i slept together a few more times after that. I asked him if there was any reason we shouldn't do that and he said no. Turns out he was working another girl while sleeping with me. He wasn't my boyfriend but he should have told me. She was also my friend, he was a good friend and he betrayed my trust. Another instance involving the same people is him hitting on me while with her. I think that is definite cheating, even if nothing happened.

i would search for true love until i found it. my true love has left me and i will find my love once more.

I bought a thong. lol This guy i liked was and still is really into thongs and sexy underwear. If he sees a thong strap his attention is gone and he is down for the count. I only owned one before we started dating and i now own about 5 or so. So i bought sexy underwear and started getting more feminine. This is particularly starnge for me because i am a hardcore tomboy. Now i am a tomboy that wears sexy underwear and girl jeans every now and then.

I myself prefer ankle socks, i like the hanes no nonsense ones because they are so comfy. I like plain old white socks, they are just fine for me.

I have a question, i just want some opinions on accepting gifts from ex boyfriends/girlfriends. If you were with someone than broke up and remained friends would you accept a gift from the person? Not a birthday or christmas present but just a heck of it thing. Like if you always said you would get them something when you had the money but you didn't get around to it until you had broken up. Would you accept/give it to your ex? We're not talking a cruise or anything just something like a poster or a cd. I myself would have no problem taking it; we are friends after all.

When you truly love someone the love never fades away, i truly love my exboyfriend and he is with somebody else. I may get over him and move on but i will always love him, because thats the way true love is. If i never felt anything for him ever again then i will know it was never true love, it was just infatuation or something like that. The way to tell true love apart from infatuation or lust is to look back at what caused it. There are events or actions that lead to love. I fell in love with my ex because he kissed my back. I have had a scarred back since i was little when i got very sick and had marks streak my back. I am shy about them and no one had ever seen them. He asked to see my back then after i finally let him he kissed my scars. I started to fall heed over heels right then. My love for him is immortal because of how we started. If i had just liked his *** or something thats diffrent. lol True love is Immortal, like the human soul.

Can love make us immotal? I think in a way it can; what better way to leave a mark on a previous life than to have felt such a great emotion? As for it keeping us trapped and not letting us attain individuality i like to believe that in order to exist we need to coexist. If a person can be an individual but be blind to love and emotion then humanity as a whole are no longer individuals. They have become a monotone collective of cold beings. If you love someone you discover more about yourself then you ever could on your own. The memories of my last love will last forever; i was blessed with a chance to coexist with a great human being that loved me back. The feeling of love is security yes, but it is more a reminder of our own mortality. I say that because the human heart is fickle, by accepting love you acknowledge that it will one day end. By not caring and seizing the moment in which you are in love, you in a way make your memories immortal and in the end, what else do we really have? Memories make us human; when a person dies they say their lives flash before their eyes. People will always try to prove life to themselves to validate their existence.

i agree with Panda, what would make us diffrent from Saddam and other people like him if we stooped to his level? We are humans, logic and reason seperate us from animals. We don't kill needlessly and have no qualms about it. A person knows the diffrence from right and wrong and has a feeling a responsability.

To keep things going at a good pace i will give a brief summmary of each. Nothing i own or buy goes without reason really. These are the ones that are always in there a few may get switched around but these are definetly the favs. lol i guess lets go then. Final Fantasy 7 Best Collection I got the whole soundtrack for christmas so i burned the favorites onto a disc. I need to add the Dear Friends live performances on there when i get a chance. That concert by the way was frickin awesome. People went crazy when one winged angel started. Breaking Benjamin- Saturate, so cold EP and We are not Alone I love bb and i own both the cds and the concert cd because they own! Ben Burnleys voice is so amazing it can get me reved up or put me to sleep. Samurai X OST Such beautiful piano, piccalos and flutes my heart sink every time i listen to it. But it is just so beautiful... Jimmy Eat World - Futures I love these guys too, this cd has alot to do with love so i think thats why its always inthere. I haven't had the greatest luck with love lately. Their lyrics are like poetry. My fav quote from Polaris is "One day when im old I'll look at you and know, the world was beautiful." Silent Hill 4 The Room Such creepy ambient music is a must. Halo 2 OST Great beats and awesome techno. BB also have a song here which is a plus. Argentosoma OST Very hard to find since the series isn't all that popular. Beautiful and highly recomended. Godsmack self titled Moonbaby and voodoo, need i say more? lol My ex used to sing me moonbaby. Disturbed - The sickness and believe The first rocks out, and the second sounds a bit more mature. Mistress on Beleive in my theme song..... Spawn -The Album Better than the movie. Great collaboration. Staind -break the cycle Staind just owns in general Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory Such a great fusion of rock and rap. Inuyasha Theme Song Collection Discs 1 and 2 beautiful theme music, DaI, and the like. I saw DaI live and they were great. She sounds better in person even. Three Days Grace Though they are a bit poppier than i typically like they are definetly cool. Grandia 2 soundtrack Contraversial game and moody music, the asian rap makes it delightfully worth it. Cold Year of the Spider every time i listen to them i hear a new something i like about a certain song Trailer Music Being a student video producer/ editor/writer and shooter, i need cool tunes to jazz up my projects. I have everything to jurassic park to james bond. Even lux aeterna. Piano Collections Final Fantasy 9 Beautiful piano and melancholy tones make this a must for a rainy day. Stand Alone Complex OST Holy Frickin God! I haven't heard such good anime music since bebop. I actually think i like it more. There are some french singers and some beautiful pieces. Yoko Kanno outdid herself. Thats my cd collection that goes everywhere i go.

way i see it you have nothing to be jealous of. I am jealous of my ex's new chick but thats because he is with her. You on the other hand have him already, don't be jealous, be proud that he has chosen you. making you jealous is why she is doing all of this anyway. If you show her your envious side she will think she in winning. Besides if you keep getting jealous he might get tired of you as well and just avoid the both of you to avoid the drama. thats me dos pesos

he and i used to be best friends, i just really miss it. he said we might always be attracted to each other on some level. I think that holds very true. I think that maybe if we do happen to get back together later we will be stronger for it. I truly love him and i am sick everyday just looking at him knowing i can't hold him the way i used to. And chibihorsewoman we aren't sleeping together, but we did a few times when he was starting something with her. Thats where alot of her distrust stems from. Either way i think it will take me awhile, we were together off and on for over a year and it will take me some time.

[QUOTE=Gavin][SIZE=1]Interesting, most interesting. Well I haven?t read the previous thread so I?m not really 100% clear on the situation, you and your boyfriend broke up but were still sleeping together and he has a new girlfriend at this point in time ? You?re still friends with him and vice-versa, but his girlfriend doesn?t want to be anywhere near you because you?re the ex and she?s threatened by that, to the point where she makes a dramatic exit like a weirdo. He says that he?ll dump her if you two don?t get on because your friendship is more important to him that this girls bed skills. But you feel that you have to ask her permission in case you make a move on him because you still have reminiscent feelings from him. Personally I don?t see a problem here but then again I?m looking at this from the male perspective, if you think you would be put into a situation where you and he would get back together then I suggest you tell him that you still have feelings for him. He obviously holds you dearer to him that her so chances are he?ll come out on your side, as for her, what she thinks doesn?t matter, your ex is his own person and if he wants to hang out with you then damn her. Really you just need to accept that it?s over with him and that you can still be friends despite his obnoxious girlfriend. Hope that helped.[/SIZE][/QUOTE] That actually did help. I guess i was just worried if i should try to respect her wishes. He knows i still have feelings for him and says he misses me sometimes too. As for asking permission i just meant that she always seems to need to be on top of stuff if she thinks we are together.

hello my previous thread was over me and my boyfriend and him ignoring me. Then we broke up right near the end of the threads life. This is for another situation so i didn't think i needed to go back and edit it. But if i was suppossed to i apologize. Heres the deal: My ex and I were broken up but still sleeping together when he decided to talk to another girl. His definition of talking was kissing and hugging up on her and introducing her as his future girlfriend. He didn't tell me or her about the situation with him and i. Then he mentioned it and told me he was just talking and cared about us both. He said she was scared and didn't want her and i to stop being friends. I decided to call her and tell her that she shouldn't be afraid of me. When i got her on the phone she told me that she had no idea that we were sleeping together. This sent off some hardcore drama and now her and i don't speak because she told him a lie about me so he wouldn't talk to me anymore. They are now in a relationship. Him and i still talk and she hates it, just the other day when i was at his place eating lunch with him she knocked on the door and ran away when he told her i was over. She ran to her car and drove off. He says we will always be friends and if a girl can't take that its their deal. But i don't know if it is wise to keep being his friend. I still care about him a lot but i don't want this drama to keep on. I feel like i need to call her first and ask if he can come out and play sometimes. I don't see a point to a relationship if you can't even trust the other person. What do i do? Do i just stop talking to the both of them?

This is one i wrote called lullaby; i just sorted out the feelings i get when i just lay around and think about the universe. I have also been in a more melancholy mood since my ex and i split up. Any crit is very welcome. Lullaby Thrown across the sky I feel The warmth quiet and surreal Hold onto it desperately And sing another verse My tattered song torn away Nothing ever feels the same Hold me in your warm duress Across the universe Lonely mothers guard the door Their hearts hidden below the floor Take me so far away Sing another verse Rip the glaze from my eyes Frosted from the snowy skies Let me believe nothing dies Across the universe Don?t let me hear the bluebirds sing If I see what tomorrow brings My heart will never leave Your perfect universe

I agree with Lore; depression is a chemical imbalance. Thats why it is such a mystery; there is nothing that really says you are allowed to get depressed. Most emo kids are teenagers; people whose bodies are in constant flux physiclly and emotionally. Sometimes they get depressed and some don't its checmical.

My father died on January 28th of this year from a drug overdose. Drugs are evil.

I wrote up a little note to go with the original pages when i give it to him. It says, these are the first pages of my journal when i first met you. I want you to have them. All they do is make me cry. They were the words of someones first love. I added a poem at the end i forgot to add to the book. I hope to move on from this, i feel better already! I finally cleaned up the mess he made when he came over to my place to take back his papa san chair. I had some laundry on it and he threw it all off and left a mess everywhere. I finally made myself pick it up tonight, and i was bawling through out the entire time. But i did it and i think it was symbolic in a way, i am a crazy writer though so meh. I will definetly get material for writing from this and there is no great loss without some small gain. If he decides he made a mistake i will be here. If not, well he can go to hell. ^-^ We will always be friends.

Last year my boyfriend broke up with me on the twelth of february. Then we got back together on the sixteenth. He broke up with me this past january and now i have to deal with the fact that the sixteenth of this year would have been a year together. Bastard.

We have just been talking and he is spending time with her. We still talk every now and then and he got my a stuffed dog for valentines. I gave him a book of my poetry just like he asked for, we gave them early and tomorrow i will give him the pages of my diary when i first met him. It will help me erase the pain and move on if i have nothing to remind me of him. I don't know if i should give him the actual pages or xerox them; not quite sure i want to keep them. I just get sad when i read them. What should i do?