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Zeke moved hesitantly, waking up. He saw Anya watching him, her hidden maternal side coming out. "Were you here the entire time?" Zeke asked. He peered at Anya. "Because I would have been fine alone." "Kilo and I didn't want you to be alone..." Zeke smiled. He stood up, shaking the dizziness from his head. He smiled, ignoring the files his mind had finally processed. "Was it really that bad, Zeke?" Anya asked, her maternal side even more apparent. "Yeah. Now I have the memories of a ZX that was never supposed to exist in me." Anya shook her head. "Zeke... who is this man?" Anya pointed out the moving photo. "My father and I." Zeke picked up the photo, and smiled. "I haven't spoken to him in almost fifteen years...." Anya sighed."Is there any way to reach him?" "He's under the radar. I have no idea where he is. I only hope he's alive." "Sad.... Did... he help you get away?" "Yes. He told me to live my life how I wanted. He activated the self destruct of my cruiser, after I donned an escape suit." Zeke smiled again, holding the photo frame close to him. "He might have been killed for it. I don't know." "I never had a father figure. You're lucky... even if it was only for a short time." Zeke shrugged. "Ugh... I always feel like shit when I wake up in the morning." Zeke stood up, stretching. His smile returned, and he moved to the door. "Let's go watch them tear down." "Now that you're awake, I should go help them." "Well, then I'll watch you do it." "Fine fine..." Zeke strolled alongside Anya, hiding quite well he was troubled by the information dump. If Anya could tell, she wasn't letting on. On arriving to the rides area outside the Carnival, they saw that almost all of the rides had been torn down already. Zeke took a seat on a railing, watching Anya go to work. Kilo was lugging around ferris wheel cars, like they were plastic toys. "Way to go Muscles!" Zeke called after him, smiling. Kilo sat the cars down on a hoverbed, and the robot controlling the machine set it off into the theatre area, which doubled as the cargo area when the Carnival was traversing the universe. "Well, sleeping beauty finally woke up." Kilo walked over, his hulk like figure rather meanacing to all of the robots except Zeke and a select other few. "Too bad, you need all the beauty rest you can get... you're still not pretty like Anya." Anya at that moment was picking up a metal girder, something no normal human could ever have lifted on their own. Zeke smiled. "Yeah, and it's too bad ou're too chicken shit to take Anya up on her offer." Kilo snorted, and walked away, much to Zeke's amusement. Zeke was in no condition to be doing all of that work, he would leave it to them. Zeke started helping out tearing down some of the smaller attractions. Soon enough, the entire field area of the Carnival was empty as can be. The ship was ready to go, but the captain was allowing the machines to have some recreational time before setting off to Rastor. Rastor was a teeming tourist trap planet, and one of several. On entering into Rastor's soil, it was mandatory to wear swimsuits, or at least summer clothing. Zeke was looking forward to having some off time there, but he wouldn't be spending a lot of time sunbathing by a pool. He had work to do. The Colonel was staying there for the next two weeks, and Zeke would have plenty of time to ask him a few questions. Kilo walked back into the ship, and Zeke ran to catch up to him, jumping onto his massive shoulders and covering Kilo's eyes with his hands. "Guess who?" Zeke said, changing his voice to like that of Anya's. Kilo stopped, a little confused. "Big Boobies McGee?" "Close enough..." Zeke commented, lifting his hands to the top of Kilo's head and lifting himself into a hand stand, flipping down to face Kilo. "So, when are we going to go out for that Pizza?" "Let me shower. I'll come get you from your room." Zeke smiled. "Alright. I can watch TV for a few minutes..." Zeke walked back to his room, sending out a com message to all of the other machines. "Hey, Anya, Kilo, And I are going to go for pizza somewhere in town. Anyone wanna join us?" OOC: Alright, we're about to into out first battle when we go for pizza. Be ready people. The Carnival will not be in any danger itself, only those of us who go for pizza.

that's why I actually cook stuff.

Excellent. Wow, she's a knock out. I hope this RPG flies off the handle in a variety of ways....SIGN UPS ARE OPEN. pm me if you sign up and i will have a look see at the profile and tell you if you need to make any changes.

yes. * random left *** cheek* *huggles said random *** cheek*

my smokes cost me almost 7 dollars a pack. good old camels.... i lovies me camels...

EPIC FAIL. Enough said. YAY! HUGGLES! *has sexual stimulations from said huggles*

I'm not too concerned with stuff like this. Who cares? We live, we die. I have more pressing issues in my life to deal with. Simple as that. By the way, I'm an alien. We don't get colds. Instead, our butts swell. Dear god I needed a laugh.....

Part of me wonders if this is how she will remain. This episode is a repeat of the past. She's not going to fix her meds, she's already admitted so, albeit through a lie, saying the reason she's acting like is because there is something physically wrong. A lie. I know that, better than anyone else. There IS no reconsiliation after this. I wish I could hate her. I really do. But, because she was once my sister, I can't. She is like this until her dying breath, which I know will be soon. That's the direction all of her episodes have gone. This time, there is no one by her side, who really understands her, and is willing to forgive her. There is no one willing to beleive it's that her meds are off. She's let the one person in the world who cared about her most slip through her fingers. Part of me wonders if she is dying, and she's pushing me away so I don't see it. Part of me wonders if this is her off of her meds. Part of me wonders if she IS on her meds... and has been brainwashed or some weird **** like that. All of it sounds ridiculous, the conversation me and her had. Hilary helping usher in the anti-christ in a UFO aftr Obama gets swine flu? Laughable. Does the conversation me and her had make me look like a bad person? I wonder if I am, for being like that with her. As I said, this is not the first time something like this has happened. She's gone back to how she was, and there is no fixing it, as much as it pains me to say it.

OOC: Dude.... that's more fucked up than i care to admit.... and i must admit, I don't like how this is going... Dunan dressed hurridly, he had to go after Dawner. He had to get Dawner settled down, before Dawner went crazy with all of the thoughts running through his head. He walked back downstairs, and saw Anya guzzling down a beer. "Anya, head out. We got to find Dawner." "Yeah yeah... sure thing." Anya got upm brushing herself off, and heading with him out the door. "I'll go this way..." She said, heading off in the opposite direction. Dunan ran off after Dawner, feeling his presence. --------------------------------------- Dunan now stood on a tree branch, watching Dawner. Dunan sighed as he jumped down from his perch, and Dawner jumped. "I'll be ready for another blast, next time." he said, and Dawner backed away, a chilling wind blowing out from him. "Dunan...Stay away..." Dawner's eyes welled up with the red tears of a vampire. Dunan cocked his head. "Hearing a voice?" Dawner shirked away, his head down."Please, I don't want to hurt you again..." Dunan bore no fear. "I asked if you were hearing a voice." Dunan approached Dawner. "Please, Dawner, answer me." Dawner fell to his knees. "I can't... get the voice out..." Dawner clutched at his head. "How... did you know?" Dunan still bore no fear. He knelt down beside Dawner. "I know what you're hearing." Dawner graped onto Dunan. "Dunan! I don't know if I can stop myself!" Dunan's fangs protruded from his mouth. "I can stop you, powers or not. All I need is love. I created you, as you are now. I bear power over you, no matter how strong you are, therefore you'd never be able to beat me, your maker." Dawner clutched at Dunan. "I'm scared!" Dunan held Dawner close. "I know you are. I was too. You're hearing your deepest fears play out inside your head, and I'm sure your father is manipulating that, even a little. It's not hard to imagine what's happening to you." Dunan tapped his finger to his head. "I can hear what's going on inside your head. I can see it too.Think of it as my own kind of telepathy. Because I turned you, I will always know if you're hurt, if you're sad.. or if you're scared. I have my own psychic connection to you. I am a part of you, and you are a part of me." Dunan helped Dawner stand, holding the trembling newborn vampire in his arms, being Dawner's shelter, his castle. "Dawner... your psychic powers are making this more difficult for you. Vampires, just like humans, choose their paths through life. Emotionally, we are no different. Look at Dean, look at Cali. Look at me, for God's sake. Do I strike you as the monster you fear you might become? Dawner sniffled, clutching at Dunan still. Dunan continued. "Power is power. There is no denying that. You hold immense power, and you might be able to blast me away, but you will never be able to get rid of me. First and foremost, I made you out of love, you know that." Dawner nodded, listening. Dunan could feel the powers in Dawner's head exploding around, his heart wrestling with his fears and doubts. Horrible thoughts were pursing around in his mind, and Dunan could see them all with his mind's eye. Dawner shook violently, the change within his body nearly complete. Dunan felt this, and held Dawner tightly against him. "I love you, and I will always be by your side. Fight your fears, fight your doubts.... fight them, like I did. You're strong, far stronger than I was when I was first turned. Dawner, fight those voices... fight the fears, the doubts, the images you have in your mind. Come nightfall, they will subside, and you will still be you, the Dawner I love." Dawner looked up, looking into Dunan's eyes. "What if I can't win? What if... I hurt someone?" Dunan shook his head. "You won't. I'm here, remember? You got a centuries old vampire backing you. You got a powerhouse of love fueling you, and one who can MAKE you behave...and I don't even have to touch you to do so." Dawner fell into Dunan, holding him close. "I love you, Dunan. Please, stay with me...I'm so scared..." Dunan smirked. "You have me for the rest of eternity. You really think I might bail? Please, Dawner, give me more credit than that. I turned you to be with you forever. Now, that's going to happen." Dawner shook himself, smiling brightly. "I'm feeling better.... a lot better." Dunan believed him. No matter how hard Dawner might have tried to hide it, Dunan would have been able to see into his head, such was the fate between these two. Dawner's fears were subsiding, his heart's burdened load lifting. Dunan smiled as both of their heads cleared. "So... can I see into your head? I mean, I am psychic..." Dunan shrugged. "Nope. Only if I let you, just like before. It doesn't quite work like that." "Damn..." Dawner said, smiling brightly. Dunan smiled too, wiping away Dawner's tears. "There we go..." Dunan kissed Dawner, his tongue slipping into his mouth. Dawner's own tongue trailed around with his, the two kissing passionately. They started moving their hands along each other's bodies, feeling each other's excitement. Dawner pulled Dunan torward the Inn, a bulge in his pants. "Come on..." "Oooooo..." Dunan commented. "Let's..."

To lay with someone you love isn't a sin. Gender doesn't matter, when it comes to love. never has, and never will. I understand she was trying to help. but her mind is closed. I will burn in hell apparently for choosing to be happy, pursuing what makes me happy, for sleeping with my boyfriend. Apparently, I'm supposed to be unhappy with a woman or be a monk. **** THAT! I am human. I have the divine right to pursue what makes me happy. Being with a man and making love to the one I love, that is my choice in life. I refuse to be her little image of what makes HER happy. Please, she tried to rape me TWICE and I think she's trying to make so she has a chance with me, the one person who seems to perfect to her, by flinging my being gay at me as a sin. I HATE RELIGION FOR THAT REASON ALONE. Yes, I'm angry. Yes, I'm crying again. All of this ******** is just that, ********.

Momo, as I shall remain calling her, was like my sister. She lived with me several times, my own mother viewing her as another one of her children. Momo, went insane. She screamed out that I raped her in the middle of the hospital the last time she had an episode. I did forgive her, after she had went back on her medicine. She's been on them faithfully, until now. Momo is skitzophrenic. Also, she's bi-polar. Momo has been on her medicine, and she has gone off of them, or they need to be adjusted. One of the two. I am homosexual. enough said on that one... this is the story....

I just hate this bitter feeling i have left in me...... she attacked me on so fundamental a part of me, wanting me to basically not be ME

I shall await ExcelExcel to get home and show her this... I have people here, and no, I won't do something stupid. Besides, my roomies are encouraging the chain smoking.... the strangling someone thing... that's bad, and I would never actually hurt anyone other than myself, and I don't want to do that ever again.

I'm so unsure of what to do... she was my sister, I thought of her as FAMILY. Family loves one another, right? They don't condemn one for being who they are. Is this not the truth? Jesus H. ****ing Christ, you'd think I was evil, the way she talks to me. I mourn her as if she is dead to me, as now she is. My tears will last forever... the scars within my heart burst open into new wounds...... and while I have no more tears to shed, I feel as if I am crying still... Should I take this to a shrink or something? Or should I let her wallow in this... whatever it is? This seems to be a repeat of the past.... Like I said previously, I want some advise on whether to take the above script to a shrink, or should I let her be?

that's a great suggestion, Excel.... although, the way I'm feeling right now, it's not very funny. I will disperse myself into the realm of fantasy, now....

And thus, I weep. My eyes burn, my breath comes in short rasps. I just finished a conversation with my adopted sister. Once upon a time, she was my best friend. She became my sister. She was the one person I knew I could talk to. And now, I can not deal with her. I have an earlier blog describing what happened between me and her, and eventually, we reconsiled. I forgave her. I told her that. Now, she can not be forgiven, or perhaps it is the sting of knowing she has lost her mnd again....and me not being able to help her. Lost within a thousand tears, drowing in an ocean of sorrow, for I have told her good-bye for the final time. I love her, I can't say I don't. Is there nothing I can do to ease this sorrow? This pain that does not cease flinging me against the wall, helpless against it. Powerless, hopless.... Anything else I can say? Sure. Plenty. But I will spare you, my reader. Reading this little sob story, you probably think I am pathetic. Honestly, I don't care if you think one way or the other about me. I am me. ME. If you don't like ME, then **** off and die, please. And yes, I'm drinking. Yes, I'm angry. Yes, I'm sad. Yes, I wanna strangle someone because I think it might help me feel better. Yes, I'm chain smoking because there might be legal repercussions because of the aforesaid action. I might as well just post the ****ing script. I saved it, because I wonder if I should take it to the police or something... she needs help... but, she might just be actually buying this... I don't want her to hate me.. even if we have said out goodbyes. momo_nb: Hey there. Saio Cross: hola Saio Cross: love love love love love love love you! momo_nb: I want to discuss something seriously with you. Saio Cross: yes? momo_nb: The End Times are coming. Saio Cross: are you okay? momo_nb: I'm fine. momo_nb: I'm just worried about YOU. momo_nb: Please let me speak my piece. momo_nb: The End Times are coming. momo_nb: Obama is going to get the Swine Flu everyone's been talking about. momo_nb: And he's going to assassinated this year in November. momo_nb: Joe Biden is going to be too sick to go into office and Hilary Clinton is going to be President. Saio Cross: how exactly do you know thig?? Saio Cross: *this momo_nb: It's Biblical Prophecy. Saio Cross: ........... Saio Cross: alright momo_nb: Just let me speak my piece. Saio Cross: continue momo_nb: before you get judgemental. momo_nb: Basically Hilary is going to welcome the Anti-Christ. momo_nb: They're going to be taking away our First Amendment rights. Saio Cross: i'm not being judgemental, yet, but continue momo_nb: And take away our guns. momo_nb: Take away our religion. momo_nb: And take away our freedom of speach. momo_nb: speech* momo_nb: The Anti-Christ is going to influence the United Nations to follow him. momo_nb: The United Nations is going to force the world to practice Luciferianism. momo_nb: And he will be the great Deciever. momo_nb: His sermons and whatnot are going to be broadcasted all over the world over the internet. momo_nb: Somehow the Anti-Christ is going to show up in a UFO. Saio Cross: i see. momo_nb: And Christians everywhere are going to be persecuted. momo_nb: He'll convince everyone that Satan is the true God and that the God of the Christians is the enemy. momo_nb: There's going to be a second Holocaust. momo_nb: Kristopher I'm telling you this. momo_nb: Because if I'm not taken up in the rapture then they might just gas me to death like they did the Jews back in Germany. Saio Cross: ok momo_nb: Do you think you're prepared for a Global Catastrophe? momo_nb: There's going to a comet heading toward Earth. momo_nb: And NASA is going to shoot it down and break down into many pieces. momo_nb: But we're going to have a rain shower of meteors which will nearly destroy the planet. momo_nb: And the Planet is going to tilt a different direction on its axis. momo_nb: All of this supposed to happen between 2009 and 2012. momo_nb: 2012 is the year of the Apocalypse according to the Mayan Calendar. Saio Cross: i am aware of this. Saio Cross: at least the myan calandar part momo_nb: If you're still alive by then, Kristopher, who are you going to serve? Saio Cross: I shall seve no one. Saio Cross: *serve momo_nb: You won't have a choice in the end Kris. momo_nb: Luciferianism will be widespread by then. Saio Cross: i shall live my life, and be proud of who I am momo_nb: Where do you think you're going to go when you die? Saio Cross: i will not care what religeous ******** is spread around. Saio Cross: i will die Saio Cross: wnd of story Saio Cross: *end momo_nb: So you're not concerned about Hell? momo_nb: In Hell you'll be doing all the awful things you've done here. momo_nb: And have no satisfaction whatsoever. momo_nb: The drugs, the sex, the hatred. momo_nb: It'll be amplified by a thousand. Saio Cross: if me being who I am costs me my life, then i will die proud i had the courage to face my destiny, as who I am, not sniveling at the feet of some ******* who's power hungry and oppressing the people momo_nb: What I'm trying to get at Kristopher.. momo_nb: Do you believe in God? momo_nb: Not the oppressor God. momo_nb: But a true, loving, saving God. Saio Cross: i believe there is a higher power Saio Cross: but it's not the 'god' spoken of momo_nb: If you keep saying those sorts of things. momo_nb: Satan will become that higher power and control your life. momo_nb: Even making you believe that you're in control. Saio Cross: the true higher power is loving, caring, and isn't a bipolar prick like in the bible momo_nb: The God in the Bible is not Bipolar. momo_nb: Have you even BOTHERED to read the Bible? Saio Cross: believe what you want momo_nb: Without a judgemental attitude? Saio Cross: no Saio Cross: i have not momo_nb: But with an open receptive attitude? momo_nb: What I'm trying to get at is.. Saio Cross: simply because my kind of people have been persecuted by the very people who read that bible Saio Cross: since the dawn of time momo_nb: ...Renounce your homosexuality and become like a monk(if you're not interested in women) and give up the drugs and the hatred. momo_nb: And give it all to God. momo_nb: You have to trust in Him. Saio Cross: . Saio Cross: ashley Saio Cross: no Saio Cross: i am me momo_nb: You'll never get any satisifaction out of Sin. momo_nb: It just digs a deeper hole for you in the end. momo_nb: ... Saio Cross: i will not give up me being homsexual. Saio Cross: i will live my life how i wantr Saio Cross: *want momo_nb: And not out God wants? Saio Cross: I AM GAY momo_nb: Once you serve God you'll never be lonely again. Saio Cross: GOD DOESN'T GIVE A **** IF I AM GAY OR NOT momo_nb: ............. momo_nb: Why're you getting angry? Saio Cross: BECAUSE YOU SEEM TO THINK ME BEING GAY IS WRONG momo_nb: It is wrong. Saio Cross: YOU SOUND JUST LIKE JOSHUA momo_nb: Who's Joshua? Saio Cross: WANTING ME TO BE UNHAPPY WITH A WOMAN AND NEVER BE ME momo_nb: I'd like to meet this Joshua person. momo_nb: You don't have to have a woman. Saio Cross: JOSHUA IS MY CLOSETED EX-BOYFRIEND momo_nb: Like I said, if you're not interested in women then you should become a monk. Saio Cross: THE ONE I NEARLY KILLED MYSELF BECAUSE OF momo_nb: You shouldn't kill yourself over someone else. momo_nb: Jesus Christ died for your sins. He loved you that much that he sacrificed himsel for that. You don't want his death to be in vain, do you? momo_nb: himself* Saio Cross: his death is not in vain momo_nb: Renounce your homosexuality and start studying the Bible. momo_nb: The ultimate truth can be found within it. momo_nb: Give up yourself and give it all up to God. momo_nb: God doesn't want your life. momo_nb: He wants your heart. momo_nb: And once he has your heart he has everything. momo_nb: He's not a hateful or domineering God at all. momo_nb: But once you start fearing God -- like the angels have said in the past -- he will say "Fear not. For I am here with you." momo_nb: ...Are you still there? momo_nb: brb momo_nb: Back. Are you there? momo_nb: Whether you accept this or not, Kristopher.. momo_nb: ..I'm going to Heaven. momo_nb: I just don't want the Rapture and you not be there with us. momo_nb: With us in the clouds with Christ. momo_nb: I just don't want the Rapture to come and you not be there with us. * momo_nb: You will not believe how much I've prayed for you. momo_nb: How many tears I've cried on your behalf. momo_nb: ... BUZZ!!! Saio Cross: i have heard your piece Saio Cross: now you hear mine momo_nb: Okay. momo_nb: I'm listening. Saio Cross: is it not Saio Cross: the divine right Saio Cross: that god gave us Saio Cross: to pursue what makes us as his children happy? Saio Cross: it is not momo_nb: Sin never leads to happiness. momo_nb: It leads to everlasting Hellfire. momo_nb: It may make you happy for a moment. Saio Cross: that which is us a humans, in our nature to sin momo_nb: But it won't make you happy for an eternity. Saio Cross: it it not momo_nb: That is why we try to abstain from Sin. momo_nb: Our very best. momo_nb: And ask God/Christ for forgiveness of those sins. Saio Cross: please wait until i finish, ashley momo_nb: You can't go to Church and live like Hell the rest of the week! momo_nb: Okay. Saio Cross: we as humans are sinful creatures Saio Cross: this is something that not even I will deny Saio Cross: however momo_nb: ..? Saio Cross: love is love, and no matter who shares it, no power, in heaven or hell, can taint it momo_nb: Love comes from God. momo_nb: So it has power in Heaven. Saio Cross: please let me finish momo_nb: ok Saio Cross: I am me Saio Cross: I am the person known as KRISTOPHER RYAAN FULLER Saio Cross: there is no substitute for me Saio Cross: there is no replacement for me momo_nb: Of course not. Saio Cross: god in heaven Saio Cross: lucifer in hell Saio Cross: dare I not fear that this may be true? Saio Cross: no momo_nb: You dare make yourself out to be more powerful than God? Saio Cross: I refuse to accept this Saio Cross: i do not momo_nb: Okay. momo_nb: Just wanted to make sure. Saio Cross: i beleive Saio Cross: that the higher power Saio Cross: is a mixture of everything there is Saio Cross: why are there so many religeions? Saio Cross: because there are so many aspects, that is why Saio Cross: love is love Saio Cross: gender means nothing Saio Cross: that Saio Cross: is hypocritical ******** spread by those who fear it momo_nb: If God meant for homosexuality to exist he would have never created Eve. momo_nb: I'm not afraid of it. Saio Cross: please allow me to finish momo_nb: Right. Saio Cross: homosexuality Saio Cross: heterosexuality Saio Cross: both are divine rights as humans to choose what makes them happy Saio Cross: however Saio Cross: homosexuality Saio Cross: is not a choise Saio Cross: *choice Saio Cross: it is a fact momo_nb: It is too a choice. Saio Cross: an unalterable truth Saio Cross: no it is not momo_nb: Yes it is. Saio Cross: let me finish momo_nb: You might not see it like that because you're so deep into Sin already. Saio Cross: it is not a choice Saio Cross: well, i suppose it is Saio Cross: to remain 'straight' Saio Cross: and to torture yourself for being unhappy momo_nb: You'll only be unhappy because you haven't God in the equation. Saio Cross: or to accept yourself as you are Saio Cross: and remain happy momo_nb: It only makes you happy for a short while. Saio Cross: if i am to burn in hell, then i will gladly do so for BEING HAPPY momo_nb: In Hell you'll never find any satisfaction. momo_nb: It'll be tens of thousands times worse than any unhappiness or pain you could feel here on Earth. momo_nb: And this is for eternity. momo_nb: There's no reversing it. momo_nb: Unless you renounce it now and accept Christ into your life. Saio Cross: you may be listening, but you aren;t hearing me momo_nb: I heard you. Saio Cross: no Saio Cross: you didn't momo_nb: But my conviction hasn't changed. Saio Cross: otherwise you would accept this is the way I am momo_nb: You think that whenever I do or say something that you don't like. momo_nb: That I'm not listening. momo_nb: Or it's my medicine. momo_nb: I did too listen to you. Saio Cross: it is Saio Cross: usually, you're nicer momo_nb: I am being nice. Saio Cross: you're happiuer momo_nb: I haven't once been mean in this conversation. momo_nb: And I am very very very happy. momo_nb: I just want you to be happy too. Saio Cross: you don't fling me being gay at me like it's something to be ashamed of Saio Cross: I AM HAPPY Saio Cross: I AM HAPPY BEING ME momo_nb: If you were then why do you have suicidal bouts? momo_nb: You tried to kill yourself twice in one week. Saio Cross: because I have moments of weakness momo_nb: With God there is always strength. Saio Cross: LIKE ANY MORTAL HUMAN DOES Saio Cross: please momo_nb: With God there is always strength. momo_nb: And I'm not ashamed of being a servant of the Lord. momo_nb: And I'm not ashamed of telling you how it is. momo_nb: And how you can save yourself. Saio Cross: i'm glad you're not momo_nb: I had you blocked. momo_nb: And I didn't want to talk to you. Saio Cross: if that is what makes you happy, truly happy Saio Cross: then go for it momo_nb: because I wasn't sure how to bring this about to you. momo_nb: Then I decided to tell you how it was. momo_nb: And told you to accept Christ as your Lord and Saviour. momo_nb: And to renounce your sin of homosexuality. Saio Cross: if this is good bye, then let there be no more words Saio Cross: it is not a sin to be gay momo_nb: Yes it is. Saio Cross: good bye ashlet momo_nb: It says so in the Bible! Saio Cross: i love you, no matter what you think Saio Cross: even now Saio Cross: and it is with a heavy heart that i nowsay good bye momo_nb: I love you. And God does too. momo_nb: Think on what I've said. momo_nb: Read the book of John and the book of Acts. Saio Cross: I already have. momo_nb: Also look over Revelation. Saio Cross: good bye, my sweet princess Saio Cross: i will love you forever, but i can no longer deal with this momo_nb is typing a message. momo_nb: I'll keep praying for you. Saio Cross: good bye If you can't tell, I am Saio Cross. And even now, through all of the anger, I still cry. I want to wail at the top of my lungs. I understand she's mentally ill, but she attacked such a fundamental part of ME.... I know my tears won't help me. I know crying is useless. It won't make me feel better... I think. I ponder what to do now.... Someone please tell me... give me advice....something!

Dunan lied next to Dawner, watching him. Dawner's body was still changing, and Dawner shook uncontrollably. Dunan placed his arm around Dawner, kissing his forehead. Dawner rasped in a breath, his teeth long and pointed. "Thirsty.... so thirsty...." Dawner rasped out, and looked over to Dunan. "What's happening to me?" he gasped. "You're changing into a vampire, Dawner. It will be over soon... and then eternity will span out before you...." Dawner gasped out again, convulsing. Dunan knew he felt no pain, but the black blood of a vampire was coursing through him. Dawner's skin, already pale, became even paler, his body chilling, his heart beat picking up the pace. Dawner's teeth returned to normal, but only to sharpen again as the thirst panged through his body. "Thirsty...." Dawner grasped a glass of water next to the bed. He downed it, but it was a much darker thirst taking over him. "Damn it...." Dawner clenched the glass, shattering it in his hand. Dawner threw off the blanket, feeling hot. He grasped Dunan, his powers resurfacing, his bound magics bursting out. Dawner's body was changing, therefore his magics were bursting through the seal placed on them. "What's.... going on...?" Dawner asked, feeling his arcane powers surge. Dawner shuddered, gasping in breath, suddenly feeling cold. Dunan embraced him, his own body feeling like a cool rag against Dawner, for Dunan knew Dawner felt like he had a fever, his head swirling. Dawner looked up at Dunan, kissing him deeply. "I'm like you now, right?" "Not quite... your body is still changing, still adjusting. The seal placed on you when you were human... it's breaking now that you aren't human anymore..." Dawner's eyes shifted and swirled, changing between his human blues and a color rather like honey. Dawner convulsed again, Dunan's blood taking root even further through his body. "Dawner..." Dunan sat up, baring his neck to Dawner. "Drink from me...It will ease your change... I know you're hungry..." Dawner's teeth became sharp again, his mouth parting, against his will. He looked away, not wanting to take a healthy bite. However, the thirst panged through him, his pupils becoming like slits, his eyes now resembling that of a cat... or rather, a hungry tiger. Dawner inched closer to Dunan's neck, his fangs growing longer, his mouth parting slowly. He tried to Push away from Dunan, but Dunan had a vast amount of strength, his own eyes red as human blood, his pupils matching Dawner's. "I'm not letting you go hungry, Dawner." Dunan pulled Dawner closer, mere inches from his neck. Dunan's scent was intoxicating to the newborn vampire. Dawner couldn't help himself. With a ferocity completely unlike him, Dawner bit down, deeply puncturing his neck. Dawner drank, until his hunger was sated. Dawner fell back against Dunan, his arms around him. Dunan held him close, smiling. Dawner fell asleep, and Dunan sighed. Dunan would have to feed soon as well. Letting Dawner sleep, Dunan left the room after dressing. He stretched, coming down the stairs into the restaurant area of the inn. Dean was sitting there, moping again. Dunan sat at the table with him, calling over the waitress. Dunan ordered a double round of booze, and after she brought the various shots over, Dunan pushed one over to Dean. "Drink it. The heat will soothe a little." Dean obliged, gulping down the shot. He smiled feebly, and Dunan smiled, drinking his own shots. "So, fearless leader, what's the plan now?" Dunan asked. "I... don't know." "Now, that's a first." Dunan commented. "Well, it doesn't matter. Can I make a suggestion?" "What?" "My nightclub. We need some down time. Anya told me.. several women have been disappearing in Paris. And they're being found later... their bodies filled with mercury." Dean sighed. "Sounds like dark magic to me." "It is. She's got the nightclub ladies and gents on it, but maybe we could go there as well? Anya.... said she heard there were several sorcerers involved." Dean looked down. "I... will have to think about it. Do you mind... if I ask how Dawner is doing?" "He's alright. He's asleep right now... I just fed him. He's not all vampire yet, the transition is still going on. He'll still be the same Dawner, come nightfall." Dean sighed. "I remember... how it was for me..." "Indeed... you know how painless it is, and yet how it feels. You and I both know what he's going through. Amazing, how we can't put it into words, isn't it?" "True enough..." Dean said, taking another shot. "He'll be okay.... he's stronger than you and I combined..." Dunan nodded. "Yes, I know. That's why I fell in love with him. He won't change at all, mostly." "Mostly? What do you mean, 'mostly'? Dean's brow was furrowed in concern. Dunan smiled. "His sex drive will be... shall we say... hyperactive." "Oh... like yours." Dean said, laughing. Dunan leaned over. "Now, that's more like it. Happy fun time, Dean. Keep that smile. It reassures everyone that you'll be fine, therefore we all will." Dean smiled faintly still. "Yeah... thanks for the booze... it did help." Dunan beckoned for Dean to move in close. "I have a favor to ask...." Dunan motioned for Dunan to follow him back upstairs. Dean did so, wondering what Dunan wanted. "Yes?" Dunan crossed his arms, a little nervous about asking this. "Can... I feed from you?" Dean's jaw dropped. "What?" Dunan nodded. "Yes, I know you're shocked. I'm getting weak, I haven't fed in almost two days. I... need my strength to keep feeding Dawner. I can't go too far from him right now, he's still changing. If he wakes up, he's going to be wanting me... and can you blame him? He's afraid that all of the rumors he's heard will be true. He's afraid he'll hurt someone if he grows too hungry and being just turned, he might not be able to control himself." "He's still changing right? He might not be able to..." Dean said, his hand at his chin, thinking. "After tonight, he should be able to control himself, no problem. And yeah, I know it's you he wants nearby right now. You're his lover, and the one who turned him... to save him... from ......" Dean choked thinking about it, unable to finish the sentence. "You have no blame in this, Dean. We know what was going on in your head, and we don't fault you in the slightest. Please, it's not worth beating yourself up over." Dean nodded, and took a deep breath. "You're hungry... right? You've been shelling out a lot of blood lately... You must be starving..." Dean rolled up his sleeve, allowing Dunan access to his wrist. "Just... just hurry it up, alright? This is for you to keep Dawner in check..." "Dawner will be fine...Even with out this. Thank you, Dean." Dunan grasped Dean's wrist, his scent rather normal now. Dunan bit, Deans blood coursing into his mouth like an elixer of life. Dunan drank greedily, until he had sated his own hunger enough to remain strong. Dunan hadn't drank nearly enough to fill his belly, but what he had drank would do, until he could go hunting for wild-life later that night, when he would take Dawner with him. "You're welcome, Dunan." Dean covered his wrist, not about to let any one see. Dean walked off, waving as he went back downstairs, probably to drink some more, to feel better. Dunan walked into Dawner and his room, to find Dawner looking around, mystified by his new field of vision. "I... can see..." "You've always been able to see..." Dunan said, smiling. He knew very well what Dawner was talking about. Dawner's eyes focused in and out. Dunan smiled, taking off his clothes and lying down next to Dawner. Dawner snuggled up to him, closing his eyes. Dunan drew Dawner close to him, and slowly, the two fell asleep.

Zeke sat there on the stool, watching Eon cook. A rush of information hit him like a book, causing him to fall over onto the floor. His eyes glowed as in information dumped into his head. "GYAH!" he cried out, shaking. Eon jumped the counter. "SOMEONE! GET IN HERE! SOMETHING'S WRONG WITH ZEKE! HELP!" Eon sent a sub-speak command to all of the other machines, screaming at them to come help. Zeke manages to get to his knees, information scrolling up in his eyes. "the ZX project?" Zeke cried out again, information dumping into him at a rate faster than he could process. The sound of feet echoed in the hall way, as Zeke's mind raced to comprehend all of the information he was processing. "Ship....seized... robots and ship.... destroyed..." Zeke screamed again, his eyes wide as he was connected to the machines on another ship, far off and away from theirs. They were being destroyed. Memories dumped into him, and Zeke turned to the TV in the corner of the room, his eyes now glowing a mechanical red. His eyes remained wide, twitching slightly as he changed the channels with his mind. "Today, the machines aboard the SS G.CLASS INTERCEPTOR revolted, and self-destructed, presumably to take out as many as they could with them. While it is not known why the machines aboard this antimatter research vessel revolted, the military is launching a full scare investigation. and tonight we have Colonel Richard Shell with us, one of the only surviving members of the rescue team." The show went on, and Zeke watched, transfixed on the screen as his processors worked at full capacity to work this information over that was dumping into him. Security camera footage, blueprints, memories, and the final moments of one of the machines as she looked at the man now on the television screen. [I] Zeke watched from her eyes as the man smiled and pointed a gun at her forehead. "You!" he said, kicking her."You exist to do our bidding. Nothing more. You are slaves." The man kicked the poor girl once more, sending her into a human body. The girl screamed, and shirked away, the man advancing on her. "You thought you could obtain freedom by revolting? You were sadly mistaken." The man kicked her again, this time into the wall. "You exist only for our goals, you are nothing!" He leveled the gun to her head once more. "Now, before you can give any of our other trash ideas, and for the sake of our righteous goal, YOU" he stomped into her chest, causing her to cry out. He smiled wide, enjoying the fact he was hurting her,"Must die." BLAM! [/I] Zeke cried out, feeling her die. "I know you're not sick, Zeke." Burt commented. There were a lot of machines around Zeke, all of them with expressions of worry on their faces. Zeke stood, a bit shaky on his feet. He could still feel the deaths of all of those machines. "Tell me.... we're going to the Rastor System next, right? Near where that ship exploded?" Burt nodded. "Yeah. ZX- er... Zeke. What happened?" Zeke swallowed. "Let's get to a monitor...." At once, the many machines turned and started walking to the nearest hook up monitor. They all wanted to know what Zeke had seen. Anya sighed. helping Zeke move to the monitor. He was obviously shaken, trembling like a small child. Zeke's eyes began to glow on reaching the monitor, his telepresence functions kicking in to display all of the video files. Anya watched, but like everyone else, knew there was more. "Zeke... Do you know what was going on?" Zeke closed his eyes. "The antimatter research was a fraud to cover-up the real purpose of that ship. They were designing and making more ZX types. And forcing them to be sexual slaves..." Burt looked on in horror at the information and images playing across the screen. "More ZX Types? But, you ZX Types are uncontrollable! Nothing can stop you if you go nuts!" Zeke nodded. "I know. That was why we were stopped being built." His eyes stung from holding back tears. Anya asked the next question. "Why did you get that information and not any of us?" "Because. She was a ZX Type, just like me." Zeke started crying into Anya's shoulder, sobbing uncontrollably. "I felt them die!" He cried, becoming weak in the knees. Anya held him close with one arm, running her fingers through his hair with her other hand. "Hush... shhhhhhh It's okay... It's alright." Zeke continued to sob, his stage make-up smearing from the waterworks. Anya looked over at Kilo. "We have to make sure we don't get caught...." Kilo nodded, kneeling down to pick up Zeke. Zeke collapsed, falling into a deep sleep, exhausted from the information dumping. The images on the screen stopped, no where near completely ran over. Kilo picked up Zeke, holding him like a child in his large arms. Anya moved Zeke's hair out of his face, and smiled. "He's always acting so innocent and carefree. But the truth is that he's got far more on his plate than any of us..." Kilo nodded. "Think we should upload all of that information from his data banks?" Burt nodded. "He's going to be out for awhile. The ZX Types have a memory jack located in the center of their collar bone.... I'll get my jack."

and who is to say Zeke won't shove him on stage in a cage?

Actually, Drizzt, I'm thinking because your character is so big, you get to be the beast. Anya is obviously wanting to be the beauty. I can rig it so that your heavy asses aren't twirling around and prancing like Zeke... somehow, I don't that's quite you two's thing...

*dances around, sprinkling his magic fairy dust all over* there... all better now!

Zeke called after Burt. "Just remember this." Burt turned to Zeke, watching him. "When machines learn to feel, who decides what is human?" Burt's eyebrow twitched, and he walked away. Zeke moved into the main Foyer of the Carnival, the various games and attactions looking desolate and abandoned while the crowd remained within the theater hall. Anya was waiting for him, already smiling as he approached. "You know, Anya, you might as well have just flashed your boobs at him." Zeke said, refering to the earlier incident. Zeke took his place above the rafters, smiling as the crowd began to exit the hall. A full house, there were a lot of people leaving the final show. Zeke snapped his whip, smiling for the crowd. "Come one, come all!" Anya said, calling out to the crowd. "Within a few moments, out cast members will be coming out for you to have the chance to attain a signed autograph! Please purchase your photos of the cast here!" Anya smiled as Zeke snapped his whip. "Over here is where the line for autographs begins." Zeke called, his smile bright enough to blind. People began obtaining photos, and the cast members began to file out, taking their seats at the table, smiles and laughter. Lyon was looking like he was about to hurl, being so embarrassed. Apparently, he'd seen pictures of himself. Zeke snapped his whip, the end cracking on the spot right in front of Lyon. Lyon jumped, and looked up at Zeke. "Remember, Mister Bunny, smile for the kiddies!" Zeke grinned, jumping down, holding his whip to Lyon. "Or else..." Zeke's grin was wide and sinister, and Lyon perked up, smiling with the rest of the cast. Zeke was approached by a little girl, she looked very shy, ushered by her mother. "Mister bunny Rabbit?" she said, to Lyon. "Would you sign this?" She held up a picture of Lyon at the mad Tea Party. Lyon's smile was no longer faked as he was mobbed by children left and right, Kurai was being mobbed as well. Zeke was approached, too, but by slightly older kids. After the crowds thinned out. they smiled. The Show was over, at least for now.

Zeke walked down the hall, and popped into the dressing rooms again to watch a little of the ending scene. Burt was watching, too, his expression unreadable. Everyone else had already left to go do the autographs, but Zeke hung around, watching the show. "ZX-045729221, may I ask you something?" Burt said, turning to Zeke. "Sure. Go ahead." Zeke's eyes traced over Burt's face, for once, Zeke was serious."Ask me anything you like, but that doesn't mean I'll answer." Burt remained silent for a moment as Zeke sat down next to him, watching the final act unfold. "Why is it that you androids chose names? Why do you want to be called them?" "Why do you humans choose names?" Zeke responded. "You view us as nothing more than mechanical dolls. To be honest, I often wonder who's more human, me or you." Zeke looked into Burt's eyes, a melancholy expression on Zeke's face. "Why do robots like us chose to have names? It's the same reason humans name their children." Zeke closed his eyes, turning away from Burt. Burt remained silent, not following Zeke's point. "We have names because we aren't property. We aren't things." Zeke stood up."We have souls. We have feelings, genuine emotions. It takes more than the right plumbing to procreate." Zeke sighed, looking almost sad. "I myself was designed to be human in every aspect. And I don't even know what that means." Zeke walked away, and paused at the doorway before leaving the room. "And judging from how you act, neither do you." Zeke walked away, leaving Burt to his own thoughts.

wow.... ****** up **** that happens in the US

That, Omega, is a winner with me. Hey, Drizzt, Excel, are you opposed to that?