though it sound marcabre, I am looking foward to dieing. I used to be scared. I really see it as the finnal thrill, one not to be rushed. I think part of my fasination is that Everyone has a differnt idea what will happen. I want to know who is right, will I cease to exsist at all, or while I stop being me and be something else? I am wiccan, so I don't believe in heven or hell, will I be damned? If I were to go to hell, it'd be ok, because all my friends would be damned too. In the end, it probibly doesn't matter, but the questions it raises allow me to think of it without being afraid. the act of dieing though is not appeling. I hope to go in my sleep at an old age.