MissWem

Can I just ask you to consider how do you think it makes her feel to have you do what you do?... Some of the things you've done to get her attention definitely will get her attention. However she probably feels more guilty maybe even sorry for you, that you'd do so many terrible things to yourself because of her. You 'stapled' yourself because of her. You see a psychiatrist because of her. You cry because of her. You probably can't concentrate in class because of her. Most of all, you tried to kill yourself...because of her. See a pattern? Would you want someone who'd do those kind of things because of you? Love isn't meant to be forced, it's either there or isn't. You can't lose what you didn't have. And to coin a cliched phrase "if you love something, let it go, if it comes back to it's yours if it doesn't then it was never yours to begin with". Maybe it's not love, just an obssession like someone else mentioned earlier. Although usually medication takes about 3-4 weeks to start working and I'm sure you actually want to get better so talk to the psychiatrist. If you don't get along with them ie. have a good repore with them then try get a new one. Other than that. Go have a crush on a hot female celebrity like half of the other teenage guys I know. Do some extra-curricular acitivites, perhaps you've got too much time on your hands...meet other girls..??

Drop dead gorgeous to me. Totally devoted to me. This thread is so superficial.

Maybe I'll be going to Hong Kong, anything to get away from everybody and anybody... If not I'll be doomed to be stuck at home in the muck of society while I destroy myself with boredom. I know I'm being incredibly optimistic right now. A cruise sounds great though, although some people (maybe not you) will get seasick. Ships are fun. I miss going on those, maybe I should save up the money and do that.

well...most of the usual, usually defined by anything that is born with less than two legs and more than eight. However it's hard to separate some of my hate's from fears. But the one that comes to mind is needles, if you've ever watched DBZ and Goku is freaking out about the injection...yep. Then again it's quite embarassing since I usually start crying just before they stick it in. I honestly can't help it. And lastly...one which my teacher thinks it's a problem for me. I fear trusting people. Because of the knowledge that it's the people who are closest (or just know the most about you ) that you are most vunerable to. Vunerability sucks. Hehehe, some of these fears are quite entertaining to read :laugh:

Depends how sexual... My boyfriend and I were messing around in the lounge doing certain things we shouldn't be doing, while my brother was asleep in his room. It was at about 2-4 in the afternoon. EDIT: This was on more than one occassion....ah good times, good times :tasty:

I have a friend whom is far more 'unstable' than that she's...borderline to put it bluntly; cuts, multiple suicide attempts, manipulative, extremely intense relationships, pervasive emptiness, bulemic(sp?)/anorexic, alcoholic possibly a smoker now and pretty much almost any kind of unstability rolled into one. However she told us about her cutting so from there on we tried to talk to her, bribe, guilt trip, crying, begging...eventually she's now getting proffessional psychiatric help after I convinced her to tell the counsellour about her suicide attempt. It's not working, but none of us want to give up on her yet, she's one of the closest friends I've ever had. But the first thing to do in coping is not to feel guilty about it. No matter how bad you feel it won't help and to put it straight, ultimately everyone is responsible only for their own actions, no one else. I suppose from the looks of it though, you just need to let her know you're there to talk to if she needs someone. Don't try give any advice or anything, just listen and be supportive, as one should do for anyone they consider a friend.

Really nice way of portraying how a person's problems become so deep and ingrained that they develop a delusion to escape from it. You actually had me convinced that the guy was real (but just really disturbed, due to their extreme lovey doveyness), but then you suddenly throw in the 'bad guy' while Michael is still 'supposedly' present then finding that he doesn't help her. How it was ended was interesting, when she suspects that Michael may not be real at all... Overall I found it enjoyable, a good read.

[QUOTE=eisenschmerz]How could I have known that there were really terrible people on this board? I was just asking a simple question which is of course in the topic range, and then you would close it!? How rude and cruel is that!? I never knew that there were people that mean. So whoa, wait a minute... ...I get dissed and treated like an idiot over a question!? I thought that there were really great people in this world, but people like the ones whom treated me like trash have things coming to them. When you treat people like crap without thinking, the same is coming for you, and I seriously hope that you learn from your mistakes. I also would not be suprised if this thread was closed, too... ...if I can't speak my mind, and be friendly to others, then why should I sit here and wait to get treated like trash!? Thank you very much for your kindness and warm thoughts. God bless you all for the lovingness that is OTAKUBOARDS.COM!![/QUOTE] We're so loving that we won't stop you from leaving... But I had a look at your thread. Dreaming your teeth fell out?...whatever you say. However I wouldn't go as far as to say 'dissed' just a firm talking to, you really should stop obssessing/worrying, it'll give you wrinkles. :D EDIT: Although I suggest you read the forum rules if you haven't already, perhaps then you might understand how to state you questions properly to make the readers more reciprocating to your inquiries...just a thought

[quote name='Hells Fire']I have been through 7 cars in my life span. Most of them have had short lives because of negligence on my behalf. Right now I only have 3 cars and motorcycle that I can't drive. I have a 2000 Jeep Wrangler Sahara(In the shop), a 1998 Nissan Infiniti(Wrecked), and a 2002 Audi S4(In danger)[/quote] gee...you "only have 3 cars and a motorcycle"...not a lot to boast about is it? Nor are the 7 cars you've had in total. I suppose your sister has never considered what it's like for pedestrians with drivers like her...normally I hate crossing roads without using a crossing but people like her are going to make me fear even going 'near' the road.

From what I can gather here, I would be an atheist. Most likely because I got sick of religion being rammed down my throat as a kid. -I went to a Christian(?) Kindergarten and was Virgin Mary in a play. -I went to Sunday school from about 5-7yrs old to study from a book which I could read but not understand. -I was forced to go St Dominic's Primary, a Catholic school and was made to go through hours of torturously boring Mass' and praying to a God, whom once again I didn't understand why he watched over everyone's suffering. -Scary adults whom mentioned Jesus/God at least once every two sentences. -I was forced to go to St Dominic's College, another Catholic school where it was compulsory to study R.E(Religious Education) which is essential bible study, to which I failed every test we had in the subject. Still, more long, boring Mass', singing to, praying to... -Random person knocked at our door and gave us a book of Mormon. -I said it before but it changed slightly: Scary adults whom mention their 'relgion' at least once in every two sentences. -I hated it so much, I laid it down with my Dad there was no way that I would worship God, I left the school, hate the school. -My Dad made me do all those religious acts, he's a great role-model since I have never seen him pray, go to church or do any of those worshipping duties of a Christian. -My Mum is now buddha and tried to convince me to be vegetarian. She also tricked me into trying to get me into helping them out at a rest home. -I was also dragged into manual labour for building their temple which has been in the process of being built for the past 10yrs, moving fibre glass sheets. I'm only 154cm and 42Kgs, do you honestly think I can do manual labour???. As a result extremely cautious around people whom are relgious, especially Christians and Catholics. Funny thing is, they never told us the difference between Christians and Catholics, not that I care to know anymore. It's not that I don't like people who are relgious, I really don't have anything against the person, it's just that I prefer to avoid certains situations where I'm suppose to deal with religion. P.S- Scary adults whom mention their 'relgion' at least once in every two sentences.

[QUOTE=Baron Samedi][size=1][color=darkred]I love tests. I excel at tests. It is the actual work which is required to fill in the time between tests that I dislike. [/color][/size][/QUOTE] ...class is good...it's called socialising..but can I just ask. How do you excel at being tested on something you weren't taught because of "the actual work which is required to fill in the time between tests"?:p [QUOTE=Baron Samedi][size=1][color=darkred]Tests give me...competition. I thrive on competition. Now, something that really should be griped about is homework. I fail to see why we need so much of it. Well... I understand why I suppose, I just don't appreciate it.[/color][/size][/QUOTE] I fully agree...Home work deprives us of free time which in turn deprives us of free thought and hence stunting our creativity, therefore leading to depression and suicidal tendencies... ...which reminds me...I have homework to do *grumbles about the lack of sleep*

Should parents get the final say...Yes...that's the least the child can do for their loving parents who laboured to bring them to life, to raise them under their roof with devotion so that one day the child may be let loose in society to work for the rest of their lives when they come of age, only to continue the cycle of existence. 16yrs of being told what one can or cannot watch is nothing compared to the potential 70 something for the rest of your life. Of course that's just in NZ, I think we can emancipate ourselves at 16...or 17...can't quite remember..eh...oh well I'm 16...but I don't wanna leave just yet :p Anyway, I don't see much of a problem, my parents let me watch whatever I wanted and I think I came out just dandy. It isn't so bad watching 'The Blob' when you're 5 and having nightmares for two days, watching Jason Gunn when you're 6 and having nightmares for a week, watching Aliens(at whatever age I was when they came out) without nightmares. But then again perhaps when I was 10??, my parents shouldn't have let me watch 'Species'...and 'Species 2' or some other random movie where the girl gets raped with a full camera shot..and... I think I'll stop ^^" No...not bad at all, now the only thing I'm scared of is hypodermic needles. Still parents know what they're doing...sorta. But if they said to me: "No, you may not ask your boy friend to rent out 'Kill Bill' when it comes out so you can watch it, you're only 16 and it's R18." My reply: "Why did you let me watch 'Barney' as a kid? Do you know how traumatized I was by that purple dinosaur?Why?Why?WHY??!?!"

This is why I envy the Japanese, they're society is sooo convenient!! But from what I heard, a friend of mine said that cellphone over there are so cheap they practically give them away, and there are special ones which cost about 10yen or something dirt cheap but can only be used in one city. Anyway, since everyone there uses a cellphone it's only natural for it to be very cheap to use, in other places I think it's really expensive for the main reason is that the companies can make it expensive and still have a large consumer demand for it. If more people get one therefore making more functional then they will have to start reducing the price of buying/using one or else the market for them will fall as people try to find cheaper alternatives. well...that's just me but...I still envy them, technology, transport...anime/manga....

I really couldn't be bothered looking into both of them into great depth...however what caught my eye and much to my relief was that the revised version had changed the part about abortion,from not allowing it to allowing it. Other than that, all I knew about it was that it was that the Doctor can do anything but harm his patients. But I don't see anything wrong with the oath, it's kinda cool...even though I don't believe in God, but I isn't it more out of respect to the ancestors than a belief?

*giggles hysterically at the idea*.......I would love to see this, really!!Not only would I want to see it, it would everyone another reason why having a gun would be 'cool'... The idea of blasting music instead of bullets...this wonderful device has just defeated the purpose of having a gun, either that or it'll start a trend in forcing everything else to be multi-pupose. This thread just made my made day even better. :p yes and very nicely put cloricus...that is just too true...lol!!

la la la la la *does a happy dance with stupid smile plastered to face*...seriously though, I have never, ever given a second thought to V.D, however this year is different. I. Have. A. Boy Friend. Yes, but the funny thing is he said he'll be getting me some stuff (naturally he won't say what but I think there are flowers there:D) and the funnier part is, his best friend who recently came back to NZ brought me a gift 0.o"(the thing is I've only met the guy once, all we did was talk on msn)....and flowers....hehehe....I'm feeling so popular. So his friend, my friend and my boy friend are all going out together on Saturday!! Yay!! This'll be the most fun I've had in ages ^o^

Awkward?!?Awkward?!? I'll tell you what is awkward...actually it's not that bad just a case of over zealousness... Well...I had been at the beach without togs and managed to get water all the way up my skirt...then went to lunch. Naturally it's uncomfortable knowing that you'll probably have a wet mark on the back of your skirt when you get up, so I was squirming in my seat. My friend tells me to stop squirming and complaining about it and I say (just a little on the loud side^o)) "I-Have-WATER-UP-MY- SKIRT!!!" and bang my fists on the table...*cough* my friend immediately backs down whilst giving me a funny look and everyone else avoids eye contact. Funnily enough, we were in a crowded mall and I wasn't embarassed. It was a silent...could be described as awkward moment.

Heads up huh?...check the weather report. On my official one it was with two of my friends and friend of my date's and well, it was a nice idea and all, go to the city and see a movie. Nothing too extravagant. But it rained. No it was torrential rain...then to make thing's worse my date had to leave me and my friend's at a mall for 3hrs while he went to pick up his cousin. He was so annoyed with the entire day. Me, I was wet. lol. But it's all good, he's my bf now :p

I honestly don't see anything wrong with your poem, it's meaningful and it shows just how much you care about her. Nice, simple and it quite fluid. I think you should have had the chance to read it. You have my sympathies

I don't get spam...*feels lucky*...the only spam I get are those annoying FWD I get from my own friends *rolls eyes* Actually that only happened since my hotmail account was deactivated for about two months. Then I realized I needed it so I reactivated and no spam since,except for two, which I promptly deleted and blocked. This was about 2 or 3 months ago.

Affecting...yeah, that's why I'm concerned about my bf reading it. However is this poem really so strange as for people to read it and not have anything to say? *sigh* where are all the critics when you need them... I'm having second thought on the last two lines though, they sound rather....used, can't think how to change it though.

I think it's a great poem, but to me it doesn't really seem like a depressed one. It flows very nicely. Maybe it's just me but it seems more like a strange awe and appreciation of death...maybe... Oh well, I hope you can take a look at my poem and see what you think, it's seems to be quite difficult to find criticism around here.

I'm returning the favour since you commented on my poem :) To the point, I did find your first one rather confusing so I read it several times...but I think I get your meaning, sorry but the meaning seems rather obscure to me. The second one however was lovely and I can really relate to it. In fact I think the best part is that just about everyone can relate it to someone they miss...really cool

Hey all.. I'm looking for some criticism since I want to send this off to my boy-friend and I'm incredibly self-conscious about my work. And before I forget, I could really use some ideas for a title..but come to think of it, I'm kinda worried about what he may say. So criticize away, if you have something to say, you don't have to go easy on me. --------------------------------------- There's a swirl of thoughts through my head, As I breathe uneasily. Truthful honesty I want to say, go unsaid, Shaking my head, I sigh wistfully. I existed...so that was that. My life I never wanted, My mind had given up, My hurt heart hated, Yet I held on for no purpose. When survival was too much... I had wished how we lived, For it all to end. I had wished for that knife, To lend me an edge. I've held it to my skin, Awed by it's sharp rough edge. I've willed it a river, Willed til I bled. I never felt the sting of blood That runs in my veins, I slowly released that pain That coursed through my head. I had been changed... The sweet smile, The intense eyes, Something to look for. The honest words, The silly laughter, Something to listen for. The gentle hands, The spikey hair, Something to feel for. The squishy tongue, The loving lips, Something to taste for. The mild aroma, The regular breeze, Something to breathe for. Something to go on for... You became my reason: To smile for real, To laugh if it's funny, To inhale air again, When I lie deathly alone. Your unhappiness makes me sad. Your distaste for life makes me give up. You have my support, You have my care, You have my devotion, You have my commitment. You became my reason; Forgetting the pain, Erasing that past, Fearing the future only to live for it. ------------------------------------------------ By the way thanks for your time.

lol, Mitch is such a charming poster, I would never have guessed.. Anyway, I'm 16 and hmm, my first kiss is with my first and current boy friend and since we've only been going out for about 2 and a half months...I have to admit, I know the exact dates our kisses progressed *blush* The first peck on the lips was horrible, right after I had just freaked out about playing the piano for him...really bad timing on his part I guess I was so nervous it did nothing for me.That was on Thursday Oct 30th? What I define was a proper kiss (no tongue) was during a movie (S.W.A.T, terrible movie) on Friday 8th Nov. I had actually regretted that one...only because I was pissed off with my mum being so protective about me going out with him.*thinks rebellious thoughts* My first French kiss was on Thursday 4th Dec and I started it *rolls eyes* well I was really curious to see what it's like and I think I kinda surprised him. I wouldn't call it anything special (he's 18 and has kissed at least one other girl) but I found out that his teeth are quite sharp...I didn't get bitten, he merely held on to my tongue. But yeah, we did try it again during another movie(last Sunday) and...I don't think he's bad...but I just thought it could be better. Unfortunately I was very very high on coffee and told him, his esteem dropped underground and he said he was afraid to kiss me. Although the part that gets to me is that he started kissing me during the extended version of Lord of the Rings 2...TODAY... I have noticed something though, the roof of my mouth is quite sensitive...I wonder if it's the same for everyone else..??